Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Conquering the demon

I write this post amidst a bit of jubilation. Four weeks ago I wrote about Finishing. At that time I said I would complete my novel in four weeks, finishing one of many dreams. Tonight, I did just that.

I faced many demons on this journey. The realities of time, family, and faith all tested me. I had troubles with my health, with my marriage, and worst of all with my children's health. Using each of these to draw strength, and using writing as an escape, I managed to face the biggest demon of all: my own self-doubt.

I've always said that my mother is my toughest critic. I love her, but she is. But she has nothing on the inner demon of self-doubt I hold within myself. I told my husband when I started this journey that even I doubted I could finish it, but I "had to try."

Over the past year I used (and abused) the support of my best friend and my husband to get the novel written. I stumbled and missed days of writing. I fell and missed months. Each time Jess or Erik would help to pick me up, dust me off, and shove me back into the sweathouse.

Tonight when I wrote those final words, and finished them off with a "The End" for good measure, Erik woke up at the exact moment (by coincidence) and gave me a good heart-felt cheer.

I now have two months (by my own deadlines) of editing and ignoring to do, prepping queries and the hook, not to mention the synopsis that I dread. But having completed the novel, conquering my own demons to do it, I have no doubt that I'll get it done.

When I'd told him I finished, Erik asked me - "So does this mean I get my wife back?"

If he only knew how much more work it would take! *LOL*


Cheryl said...

I am so proud of you! I knew you could do it. I'm glad Erik is being supportive, though like most he doesn't totally understand what it's like to be a writer.

Good luck with the editing and ignoring. And when it comes time for your query letters, I hope you'll share them with SC so your writer chums can give you some feedback.

I love success stories!


Laura said...


Your words are so exciting and inspiring. It's so awesome that you've finished. Congratulations!


Anonymous said...

Congratulations! I'm proud of you too, for getting your first draft finished. I'm just beginning my first novel, so you are an inspiration to me. Thanks for sharing. Good luck with the rest of the process. :)